I've been trying to start this off for the last hour, but as soon as I start I seem to get a block, and can't write anything.
Maybe I should take it as a hint, and not write anything... but the truth is I have so much running through my head and nowhere to get it all out. (Problem is, the majority of it is negative, which won't make for very good reading..)


There's not enough hours in the day.... I know I keep repeating it, but it's how I feel at the present time.
I love my family.. and want to do my best for them, but I keep losing hours here and there. I can't keep up... and find myself being dragged along with no control. I need to get my feet firmly back on the ground.


Little Man is in school full-time... which leaves me with a good 6 hours a day to get things sorted... why is it, then, that I'm not getting anywhere?
I feel like I don't spend all that much time with him either, which has to change... I've noticed that, as much as he loves the idea of having a baby brother or sister, he's starting to get a little jealous.
It's just little things at the moment, but those little things have the potential to escalate, and the entire situation will become so much more difficult to handle.
Half-term is going to be about spending time with him... and not a lot else.. He normally has plenty of time with my parents, so he's staying home. And the only exception to this, is if I go into labour...


Talking of labour.... 33 weeks today... which means 49 days until my due date. Where have the last 20-odd weeks gone?
This pregnancy has been really different to Little Man's. Why? It's tougher, that's the only thing I'm certain of..
I've been diagnosed with Pelvic Girdle Pain, which is starting to affect me more as time goes on. It's been irritated by a Bambi on Ice impression too.. Complete agony for the last 36 hours.


I know I'm sounding really negative, but I can't wait for this baby to arrive. I would like to get everything sorted, and start getting used to having a baby around. :)
Dot is still gender unknown.... but now we haven't got long to wait. :) I know he/she doesn't stop wriggling.
I've only really bought the basics... plain white babygro's, vests, etc... but keep looking at the pinks, and blues longing to know. lol.


Anyway, I'm going to get ready to watch Fast Forward..


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So Many Times...

I have heard a tired looking Mother say 'There's not enough hours in the day', I even heard my own Mum say it when I was growing up - I never knew what it meant, until recently.

I think the key to understanding a parent is being a parent...

I am, first and foremost these days, a parent. :) The other aspects of my life (such as social) are practically non-existent. But I am happy with the way it is.. in the most part. :)

My fiance is great, but is still a man. ;) and my son is adorable. And then there's the unborn, Dot, due 7 weeks today. :)

I still have plenty to do for Dot's arrival, then there's the day to day things with Little Man which are never-ending, and then there's the house... let's not talk too much about that.

But there's still not enough hours in the day...